The Weight Issue
I just found this article: http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/user-post-what-is-my-ideal-weight-5-tips-for-finding-your-happy-weight-393032
It actually made me feel a lot better about myself now. Lolz. I’ve been pigging out a lot, and me being the dessert freak I am, I tend to eat more sweets than actual food. So… that’s been pretty depressing. Plus I’ve got track to run, so I’ve been wondering if my lack of ability this year is due to a gaining in weight. Because, yes, I was super anorexic skinny last school year, and this year I just let myself go. I eat whatever I want whenever I want. Yes, there are times when I actually feel happy that I’m not bothered by what I’m doing, but then there are also times when I just grab that bulk of fat and squeeze it in hopes that it would miracuously vanish.
I love food. It’s one of the most important factors in my life, and if I don’t get it I get angry. However, I have a tendency to spurge a lot, so THEN I get angry too. It’s so frustrating sometimes. I guess, after reading that article, I should just be happy with what I can do and what I have. Yes, it’s always good to have moderation, and I’ll work on that, but I shouldn’t cry about every little wrong I find in myself, because, let’s face it, no one’s perfect. I’m always going to be unhappy with myself, with how I look, with what I can do, with what I have, and it’s just never going to end. Maybe I should find my inner peace and stop complaining so much.
With that said, I must go and do my history homework. I’m not going to complain, but… ><;;;
